Ah, I've suddenly realized that if you decide to become a designer, and start submitting patterns to magazines, it isn't all peaches and cream. I'm practically crawling out of my skin waiting to hear back on my first pattern submission, but it's made it this far without a rejection, and there's only so much time left, so I'm trying to tell myself I've already found success even if this pattern doesn't get published. It's made it to the final cut. And it's only my first.
So, I think the suspense is driving me insane, because I'm working on a crochet pattern to submit to CrochetMe.com. How I could decide to put myself through this again, I'm not sure, but what the hell.